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Lookng Up From My Life
February 19, 2008, 11:34 pm
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When I was a young boy I would spend countless evenings lying in the yard and looking up at the stars.  I would wonder what was there.  I would try and wrap my young mind around the concept that what I could see was only a fraction of something so vast and ever ending that my mere world was only a speck of light.  A light so faint that if it should be snuffed out tomorrow no one would be the wiser.  I have always grappled with the paradox of life on this planet and the existence of God.  In the limitless arena of space I refuse to believe that this is the only planet to entertain life.  As I grew older I began to pull away from the idea of God at all.  I mean how could it be that an almighty spirit would choose to populate only one planet among hundreds of billions of worlds?  Then to add insult to injury the creations that are placed on this sole inhabited planet are so flawed that they constantly teeter on the brink of extinction.  Over the years I have felt my grip on the concept of God loosen until finally I had basically given up.

Now as I look around I know that there is something more to it.  The very night that I wrote my entry titled, ‘Dear God, It’s me…’ something happen.  I was at the end of my rope and was debating on just giving up.  Late that night I got an email from a professional contact.  It was about a job.  Fast forward to three weeks later and an offer was made and on January 3rd I went back to work.  Do I believe that God had a hand in this?  I don’t really know.  I do know that the fact that I was offered a job less than a month after I lost mine is nothing short of miraculous.  The fact that I did not even apply for the position and it was offered to me and to me only makes me wonder.  Perhaps there is more to this than I will ever know.  I do thank God for this, because I do think that regardless of what my mind says there is more to life than living and dying.  Will I become an overly religious person?  No, but I will give more thought to it.  I think that sometimes you have to listen to the voices in your heart and not in your head.

It’s funny.  When we are young we run around looking up at the sky.  When we are older when spend a lot of time looking down at the ground.   Perhaps if we spent more time looking up and not down at our feet we would see the truth.  Perhaps if we looked up now and then we would see that God is really there.  Perhaps I will spend more time looking up at the stars.  Who knows what I might just see.




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Like i always believe….Miracles do come true…

I’m very much happy for you sean…. very much

xoxoxoxoox…. ur in my prayers.

   jhAy z 02.20.08 @ 7:26 am

Sean congratulations for getting a new job.

My best wishes to you :)

   Mace 02.22.08 @ 6:28 am

u know wt i like your sense of.. thinking…. Christaians are very unique.as a living individual..

   shmily 02.23.08 @ 6:50 am

Thank God for Sean’s new job!

   Elen 02.24.08 @ 8:03 pm

i luv personnal narrations

   clarissa 02.24.08 @ 11:15 pm

GOD does exist. Why we human beings always wanting a proof?, when all the proof that you need exist in you. You yourself is a miracle. Faith is what we lack.

Anyways, good narration. Im your fan.

   ANNA 02.25.08 @ 8:36 am

congratulations on your new job. Faith is the substance of thing unseen. I love looking at the stars…it makes all my worries seem minute compared to the vastness of the universe.

   conni 02.26.08 @ 1:41 pm

thanks for gods will,,its true that theres always solution in every probs..youre right always listen to what your heart says,and do believe always for what you want to do,and be good that no one will do bad againts you…theres always god around you like the stars above that you are always want to look at…keep it up sean..im proud of you…

   yayo 02.26.08 @ 7:18 pm

congratulation sean… miracles do happen! and for all of us who believe “keep the faith”.

   gigi 02.28.08 @ 9:36 am

I loved reading your words.
I believe just like you. Nice to know I am not alone..

   Paula 03.01.08 @ 10:48 pm

Hi! i’m so happy to read your blogs…Praise God that you really believe in the truth.. that God miracles still exist in this wild world, we just need to have faith and hold on to His promise. God is always there for us especially our hard times, He is the light to our dark path ways through life…and we need to get closer to him so we can never lose the Light and we can walk easily with Him. and we need to worship and praise His name and give thanks to Him for every blessings that he gave to us. God’s Miracle is REAL and the stars above is the proof….that only Almighty God can create that! God bless you brother!!! Keep up your FAith to GOD and live holy!

   liezel 03.02.08 @ 4:47 am

you are not overly religious person.. you just believe for what you see and what you feel..Just Put God in your heart first and God will provide your needs…Religion can’t save any people here in this world! but Your faith and Love to God is your salvation..

   liezel 03.02.08 @ 4:53 am

right Sean especially during hard hard times! God should be with us and my faith says Hes there!:)LETS CONTINUE WITH OUR FAITH N BELIEF.

   kate 03.03.08 @ 6:34 am

Hi Sean, I’m just a stranger browsing blogs, and I’m quite happy that I landed on yours, sometimes I think like you did before, maybe many people do, right? “to see is to believe” says many..yeah..but when it comes to God,FAITH is all that matters..Sometimes we don’t really have to listen to what our critical mind is saying, because a lot of times our hearts know the truth, and that little voice within it is a lot smarter than our brain..I’m happy for your realization Sean, you are a proof that miracles do happen we just have to open our hearts and see the daily gifts of life that God has given us…Congratulations on your new job and always hang on to your faith no matter what happens..God is always beside us willing to listen… God loves you,just like He loves us all…God bless you. and please continue your writings,i think it can inspire many people….Godspeed!!!

   Liezel 03.03.08 @ 7:09 pm

Trust in the Lord always…
God bless you.

   Beth and Bert 03.03.08 @ 11:39 pm

“A man’s heart deviseth his way: but the LORD directeth his steps.” Proverbs 16:9 (KJV)

“Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created.” Revelation 4:11 (KJV)

   David 03.04.08 @ 6:14 am

What a coincedence that I saw your blog. I was down today and was looking at my blog. When I sort of click on the new blog. I as sort of giving up today and I finally realized that I got to have hope in God. Thanks for sharing!

   Maricel 03.08.08 @ 11:34 pm

Congrats with your new job Sean. God works in mysterious ways.

   Ray 03.12.08 @ 4:42 am

hey there .. here’s a chance reader’s take on your post … very inspiring and heartfelt. I pray for better things your wandering mind could ever think of. Probably the night you typed in your “Dear God” entry is the night God is looking thru His To-Do List :) .. as I have always believed, God spreads His magic in His perfect time. Some men are just so cocky to challenge Him by asking things to be given by their own time. We just have to wait and keep the faith. Be good always bro, my heart’s with you.

   Jane 03.13.08 @ 12:27 am

yes…GOD IS EVERYWHERE…there is no safe in this world but it’s in HIS heart only…

   claire 03.13.08 @ 4:15 pm

An old man once told me:”If God closes a door, He opens a window.” I think your experience is an obvious exemplification of that cliche, Sean. Congratulations and I hope luck won’t stop knocking at your door.

   rv 03.15.08 @ 1:43 am

Sean…thanks for sharing your great experience in life,
God always besides us..Take Care & God Bless!!!

   Thelma 03.16.08 @ 8:52 am

Hi Sean!
I’m so happy for you and so thankful to God for what He has done for you!
Keep on moving, don’t stop!
God bless you always!

   GRACE 03.20.08 @ 3:01 pm

HI SEAN KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK.GOD IS IN UR SIDE BE OF GOOD COURAGE,..

   Limwel 03.20.08 @ 6:03 pm

Very inspiring blog… very nice, you made me smile :)

   Beryl 03.23.08 @ 11:46 pm

Very inspiring! Happy to hear people learning and finding God’s daily miracles in our lives! Keep the faith brother!

   SAM 03.26.08 @ 2:38 pm

When I was a young boy I would spend countless evenings lying in the yard and looking up at the stars. I would wonder what was there. I would try and wrap my young mind around the concept that what I could see was only a fraction of something so vast and ever ending that my mere world was only a speck of light. A light so faint that if it should be snuffed out tomorrow no one would be the wiser. I have always grappled with the paradox of life on this planet and the existence of God. In the limitless arena of space I refuse to believe that this is the only planet to entertain life. As I grew older I began to pull away from the idea of God at all. I mean how could it be that an almighty spirit would choose to populate only one planet among hundreds of billions of worlds? Then to add insult to injury the creations that are placed on this sole inhabited planet are so flawed that they constantly teeter on the brink of extinction. Over the years I have felt my grip on the concept of God loosen until finally I had basically given up.

Now as I look around I know that there is something more to it. The very night that I wrote my entry titled, ‘Dear God, It’s me…’ something happen. I was at the end of my rope and was debating on just giving up. Late that night I got an email from a professional contact. It was about a job. Fast forward to three weeks later and an offer was made and on January 3rd I went back to work. Do I believe that God had a hand in this? I don’t really know. I do know that the fact that I was offered a job less than a month after I lost mine is nothing short of miraculous. The fact that I did not even apply for the position and it was offered to me and to me only makes me wonder. Perhaps there is more to this than I will ever know. I do thank God for this, because I do think that regardless of what my mind says there is more to life than living and dying. Will I become an overly religious person? No, but I will give more thought to it. I think that sometimes you have to listen to the voices in your heart and not in your head.

It’s funny. When we are young we run around looking up at the sky. When we are older when spend a lot of time looking down at the ground. Perhaps if we spent more time looking up and not down at our feet we would see the truth. Perhaps if we looked up now and then we would see that God is really there. Perhaps I will spend more time looking up at the stars. Who knows what I might just see.

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   eric 03.27.08 @ 8:18 am

Awwwwwwwww… This is such a soothing blog posting that I have ever read.. I truly understand what you felt and what you went through, as I have been through something similar.. In fact, that was the point when I began to question the existence of God.. I began to lost faith in Him as each day passes by… till I found a new job 3 years later..

Wowwwww.. when I looked back, sometimes I wonder how do I manage to persevere all those times :)
*Peace*

   Honey 03.31.08 @ 10:43 pm

wow…
ilove readin it..=)

   _ayu_ 04.02.08 @ 9:34 am

I think i recently had the same experience too. More of a meaning of life than anything. I wouldn’t label it religious, but rather a spiritual awakening or understanding. Its’ more accepting of the me that i really am and not discriminating like I m used to feeling and be treated with. I like your blog makes me go ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. All i need now is a nice smelling fluffy pillow and a hammock….:) Oh and thanks for sharing!

   Lex 04.03.08 @ 1:29 am

Ask…Seek…Knock…And U’ll find.
With out question there is no answer and with out answer there is no solution and with out solution there is no rest and with out rest there is no rest, ask and will be given un to U

   Victor 04.03.08 @ 6:50 am

It’s really amazing how different our worlds may be, there’s still something that makes us one…our faith.

Keep listening to that one little voice within and you’ll never go wrong.

Take care.

   MaFe 04.03.08 @ 12:51 pm

Hey Sean,

THE LORD IS,THE BREATH YOU TAKE ALONG THE WAY.
HE IS THE SKY ABOVE AND THE EARTH BELOW.Congratulations,and more power to you.
GOD BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!

   Susana 04.06.08 @ 11:34 am

Hi Sean, I just got interested with your blog and read it. It reminds me of my own scenario when I was losing hopes and getting into depression. When I did not get the job that I really wanted, I got really depressed. Nevertheless, I have one that I kept although I like less. They say that if one door closes then for sure something opens up. Now, I got a call again from the same health care authority offering me a job that I never applied and this time offer is even better. My hopes are up that I will be hired, if this is really meant for me. We don’t need to be religious to believe that there is a force from up there. It is inside our hearts, mind and soul.

Your blog is touchy and good inspiration. Congratulations and more power to you.

   Toxic 04.10.08 @ 1:26 am

I really like the last paragraph. It’s true that when we’re older, we tend to forget how to live the life. We think cost-benefit and even in love, we think so deeply, not just loving that person like we used to do when we were kids. Your thoughts are very moving, Sean, and though I’m not a religious person, I’m starting to believe in miracle

GBU :)

   Sawa 04.12.08 @ 3:47 pm

i just browsing some blogs and suddenly.. u pop up and by chance i read it…what a luck i have coz.. something in my experience i remember… i’m like you i will not for sure a religious person like other but i have learn a lot in life…when we are still young GOD give almost everything that we want to show that He exist but when we get more older.. He wants to test how matured we are… if we are still with him if our desires will not be given immediately….

   SOUL 04.18.08 @ 4:34 am

God is real and he loves u, even if we sometimes doubt it, He is as near as in our hearts. knocking in our very soul, He wants to show u more if u will only let him. Take care.

   Jane 04.20.08 @ 3:44 pm

yes…GOD IS EVERYWHERE…there is no safe in this world but it’s in HIS heart only…

   anarkali 04.26.08 @ 4:42 am

God is good all the time. Inspiring blog Sean, God bless always…

   miguela 05.01.08 @ 5:09 am

“All i have seen teaches me to trust the Creator for all i have not seen” - Ralph Waldo Emerson

” Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” - Hebrew 11:1

The works of the Lord are great…Thank you for a heartwarming blog…

   Rizally 05.06.08 @ 7:22 am

god is great…

   nesha 05.13.08 @ 1:10 pm

yaeh!! thats true.. sometimes we lose our mind to think the truth, the reality.. inspite of this, God still make the moves to show what really is.. Congratulations!!!

   iSKO 05.14.08 @ 8:26 pm

hi SEAN,im not a religious person but i have s strong faith in GOD,i do believe his miracles & wonders & that in every human destiny is influence by GOD’s will. you have a very good wisdom & that is a gift. more power & god bless you!

   tess 05.15.08 @ 7:12 pm

sean gud luck 2 ur new job..im gonna pray 4 ur success

   oNe LoVe 05.15.08 @ 11:09 pm

Hi, Sean. You melt my heart. I am actually feeling so down at these days because of missin my family so much. I am pre=occupied by the four walls of my room. Thanks for posting this blog. Best of luck!

   919 05.16.08 @ 12:16 am

Hi Sean,
Iam impreseed with your stories..
There can be miracle when you believe..
so the world is yours.. :))
Wish you all the best !

   Fresh-ka 05.17.08 @ 4:52 am

wah,,this very wonderful,,ilike this,i alwasy belevie miracle do come true

   DHARMAWAN SURYA 05.23.08 @ 8:14 pm

Matthew 6:25-34
Jesus tells us not to worry about those needs that God promises to supply.

Beautiful and inspiring blog!

   Betchay 05.24.08 @ 12:26 pm

hi. your thoughts are amazing!.. you are gifted in writing. i can totally relate.

   archie 05.28.08 @ 10:00 pm

very nice writing,:)

   Maijang 05.30.08 @ 11:12 am

You are such a wonderful person and God loves you…and that’s for sure.

   lucinda 05.31.08 @ 2:05 am

for someone like me who has so many dreams but so little faith, i thank you for writing this. you inspire me to look up and just look up some more. it felt so good when i did it. and i knew from then on, I could be so much more. and GOD will still be there. thank you. mwah!

   jam 05.31.08 @ 9:16 pm

So inspiring…all things are possible with God. Keep on believing.

   Rhita Lea 06.12.08 @ 3:48 am

only One TRUE GOD EXISTs..Praise and serve HIM with Your Whole Life..

   welru 06.12.08 @ 9:22 am

Truly amazing entry.Very inspirational. I do completely believe in God.

   Apple 08.16.08 @ 9:41 pm



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