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Sometimes we meet someone and there is a click, a connection, a spark. Sometimes that connection is so strong that it pulls you together against all the odds. Sometimes the spark is so intense it can set things on fire. Then sometimes the very thing that brought you together in the first place ends up driving you apart. Finally, sometimes the separation is more intense than the connection. Do the most intense things in life last the shortest because that is all as human beings we can endure? Are we forever doomed to chase after the shooting star just before it is snuffed out?
The person I have grown the closet to since I moved to California has faded away. Our friendship had a spark from the very beginning. It was a fast and furious journey. It was charged with emotion and attraction, but the very thing that brought us together has now pushed us apart. I have to admit that our friendship was a little one sided. The fact that I was attracted to him was a problem from the very beginning. As our relationship evolved it became more and more apparent how easily I could be manipulated because of how I felt. Now months later the flame that was our friendship has been extinguished. I’m not sure how or why, but it has happen. As I sit here tonight I have to wonder what is next for me. My closest friend since I moved here is now as distant as any stranger on the street. I once told a friend back East that this new friendship was wonderful and all, but that it was also a distraction. The spark was so intense I have not been able to see clearly. Perhaps now without the glare of his friendship I can move on and find the life that I am supposed to be living. I will miss him and may be we can be friends again some day, but for now I will look for a new shooting star and may be this time I will wear shades.
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It’s better to plan ahead. Wearing shades is pretty cool idea I would say. Good luck to you and happiness will never leave you I think. Coz you are one blissful soul.

keight 02.20.07 @ 5:54 amsmile!!
Ms aQILah 02.20.07 @ 6:00 pmWow! This happenned to me too! Very well said.
Rinna 02.20.07 @ 6:36 pmThis is exactly what is happening to me at this very moment. Repulsion and attraction is ruling and it is sad to say life is full of ambivalence. Well, intense attraction can be disastrous which can pull you off from the right track and you can’t go back.
Big Nose 02.20.07 @ 6:42 pmthis is great,.i feel the same way..shame for us!thats life, better luck next time..if its meant to be, its meant to be.
-MhE- 02.20.07 @ 6:50 pm**wink** Shooting star for me too!!!
Red 02.20.07 @ 6:55 pmEverything that happened, happen for a reason and always for a greater good. Most of the time we don’t see it there and then. However when the time is just right we will realize why it had happen. Always, always be grateful coz what ever we received and thank about we will get more of it.. Tenfolds. I wish you all the love and happiness. Believe that you deserve the best and always love yourself first.. coz we can’t give what we don’t have
Take care
'Tini' 02.20.07 @ 7:05 pmEverything that happened, happen for a reason and always for a greater good. Most of the time we don’t see it there and then. However when the time is just right we will realize why it had happen. Always, always be grateful coz what ever we received and thank about we will get more of it.. Tenfolds. I wish you all the love and happiness. Believe that you deserve the best and always love yourself first.. coz we can’t give what we don’t have
Take care
'Tini' 02.20.07 @ 7:05 pmEverything that happened, happen for a reason and always for a greater good. Most of the time we don’t see it there and then. However when the time is just right we will realize why it had happen. Always, always be grateful coz what ever we received and thank about we will get more of it.. Tenfolds. I wish you all the love and happiness. Believe that you deserve the best and always love yourself first.. coz we can’t give what we don’t have
Take care
'Tini' 02.20.07 @ 7:05 pmJust as the fuel for the fire finishes.. The flame dies off..
oboEaoUotIofUlo 02.20.07 @ 7:26 pmWill there be a friendship that burns like the sun’s flame.. Never ceasing till eternity..
A true friend would never take advantage of your feelings. I would also dare to say that perhaps it was not mere friendship you were hoping for in the begining. I think we’ve all had our share of crushes on friends but when it starts to control your relationship with them (and it isn’t recipricated) it becomes time to reacess who your friends really are.
Meghan 02.20.07 @ 8:10 pmI know it’s hard to be in a new place but cheer up, friends are not as hard to find as you may think. We all want to have friends and be cared for all you need to do is put yourself out there.
At any rate *hugs* for your heart and I hope you will look forward to the better things to come ahead.
Meg
the content in general is vry true to me coz im chasing my shooting star too! it slips and gone. what important is that it leave worth cherish for. “lesson in loving”
edlvinerik 02.20.07 @ 8:32 pmYes its very true when the hart speaks you really cant stop it,im a situation right now that might be wrong for others,but thats how i feel and I wanna be honest to myself im fighting for this love I have with someone,ill make it last for as long as I can,who knows how long but Ill cherish every moment I had with her she might move on but my love for her will never cease she’s my first love. With her were the happiest days of my life and I will love her until the day I die.
Archie 02.20.07 @ 8:42 pmi almost have the same experience with yours.. may be the only difference is that ..until now, i haven’t move on..
Ruby Anna 02.21.07 @ 11:21 pmit is hard and painful..
I wanted to continue the friendship.. but the other party is the one who keep on running away from me.. i wanted to say i’m sorry (thinking that i’ve been too suffocating on the friendship that we have) but how can i mend and revive everything since the other party is not holding on..
Yeah., may be we could still be friends someday.. and i am wishing that to be soon..
i haven’t move on..until now.. at the end of the day.. tears still fall from my eyes.. but what else can i do..but sigh..
you never seize to amaze me sean.
Like in a quote: “If you ever want something badly, let it go. If it comes back to you, then it’s yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never yours to begin with”
and that’s the time you buy shades and look for a new shooting star! lmao (my version of the quote)
Pseudo-Lunatic 02.22.07 @ 8:31 amI know how the longing felt like, yeah.. it’s like hell!
unavailable 03.13.07 @ 9:03 pmbut shooting star doesn’t come for once only, it descends every night, but you’ll have to be in luck to catch it =)
huh! almost d same story with me…en its just happen.sometimes we cant control ourselves, but we should bear in mind …are we really sure that we love her or him or its just attraction?
Fe 04.12.07 @ 8:05 pmlets ask 4 the guidance of GOD 4 the strength en peace of mind
u knw wut..i feel the same too..very well said..i hope u’ll find ur shooting star n ths time u cn keep it =)
neeSun 04.12.07 @ 8:09 pmey..! i was juz bored and i aparently read ur blog.. guess what?? i feel the same way too with my my bestfriend. but the difference is that hes the one who moved here in the philippines to study, and he met me and we become best of friends.. we alwyz hang out. and i’m the one who wants to stay away from him after i realized my feelings towards him (coz i know he only wants my frndship and it sure hurts a lot) but u know his actions can realy be mis.interpreted.. hes very sweet and ol.. anwyz.. ya i tried to break our friendship but he wouldnt let me go… so right now wer still friends.. hes not here now though we went home to L.A for vacation. I Guess i have to endure being juz hes bestfriend. _ur not alone so cheer up!_
F-r-a-n-CYN 04.12.07 @ 8:37 pmi feel you. . =(
-chaychay - 04.12.07 @ 11:25 pmi think the best way to do is to wait till d journey’s come..it’s hurt when friendship is gone…so don’t show up till both of you are destined to h other…
JACKIELOU 04.12.07 @ 11:33 pmI have experienced the same as you before, thought that all friendships will be everlasting and true. I am really hurt by certain friend who used to be close to me, just suddenly faded away and became a stranger and also made empty promise to keep in contact. I guess I have learnt to let go and appreciate all those friends who treasure me now. I just wish this friend all the best for his life and hope that one day he will still remember me and contact me.
A shooting star lost….
Charlotte 04.12.07 @ 11:52 pmouch..it hurts u know..
Justine Ruby 04.13.07 @ 12:57 amOnce, i lost my shooting star too.
AiLeen 04.20.07 @ 6:10 pmBut sometimes one of our friends can be a betrayer
Cindy 05.14.07 @ 6:41 amTo wish upon a’shooting star’ really like to see it……its rare rit? anwy shooting star itself plummeting dwn and not up, (not being cynical here) its interesting just to note this! even the stars are dying out………….
Aemare 05.14.07 @ 8:32 amI never claim to know the answer to life. Always in the look out, and I thought I’ll share this thought with you. One I only just realised a few days ago when spending time in my garden.
Today I was in the garden doing some bits and had a realisation. I saw how my garden’s changed. It started off as a bare (almost) plot, and it’s growing now. What I realised today is that some of the plants that was planted 6/5/4/3/2/1 years ago are no longer there
They’ve peaked and gone, replaced by different ones. Some also stay and grow stronger. It’s not just a change of season. There’s a change of scenary in the same season. Sometimes controlled, sometimes not. It’s evolved and continue to do so. Even with my best intention to maintain it, some plants just didnt survive till next year, and I often analysed it. Sometimes I come to a conclusion, sometimes I don’t. I looked and wondered and reflected this about life in general and my life specifically. Changes. Things come and go. People come and go. And some come and stay and grow stronger. There’s part I play and within my control, and sometimes it’s totally out of my reach.
It’s a reflection that will evolve I believe. And I’m trusting again as my life keeps changing. There’s never guarantee in life. The best thing I can do is to keep on trusting and choosing.
Grace 08.03.07 @ 4:23 am